Sunday, January 23, 2011

Obsession.

I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.

I always put too much faith in people. How many times do you give someone a chance before you just cut it off? I wish I was someone who could easily remove people from my life. I can't. I fight to keep people in my life. People who don't even care to be there.

I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.

Why am I so attached? Why can't I just be satisfied with the ones who want me in their lives? Why isn't that enough?

I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.

Maybe because growing up I wasn't accepted. Not by anyone. And now when people accept me, I am TERRIFIED of them changing their minds. TERRIFIED. The reality is that there are a lot of people and friends who do accept me and love me.

Yet, I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.

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