I miss these moments more than anything right now. Always an Aggie.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Thanks for the phone call.
It is nice to know that at 25 years old I am still, and always will be, a disappointment to my parents.
It's even better to hear it straight from them. Doesn't hurt at all.
I have spent a lifetime seeking approval from them and it just simply isn't ever going to happen. There has always been something I wasn't good enough at. Always something to criticize.
I will never be good enough. Not for them.
It's even better to hear it straight from them. Doesn't hurt at all.
I have spent a lifetime seeking approval from them and it just simply isn't ever going to happen. There has always been something I wasn't good enough at. Always something to criticize.
I will never be good enough. Not for them.
Obsession.
I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.
I always put too much faith in people. How many times do you give someone a chance before you just cut it off? I wish I was someone who could easily remove people from my life. I can't. I fight to keep people in my life. People who don't even care to be there.
I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.
Why am I so attached? Why can't I just be satisfied with the ones who want me in their lives? Why isn't that enough?
I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.
Maybe because growing up I wasn't accepted. Not by anyone. And now when people accept me, I am TERRIFIED of them changing their minds. TERRIFIED. The reality is that there are a lot of people and friends who do accept me and love me.
Yet, I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.
I always put too much faith in people. How many times do you give someone a chance before you just cut it off? I wish I was someone who could easily remove people from my life. I can't. I fight to keep people in my life. People who don't even care to be there.
I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.
Why am I so attached? Why can't I just be satisfied with the ones who want me in their lives? Why isn't that enough?
I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.
Maybe because growing up I wasn't accepted. Not by anyone. And now when people accept me, I am TERRIFIED of them changing their minds. TERRIFIED. The reality is that there are a lot of people and friends who do accept me and love me.
Yet, I have an obsession with gaining acceptance from those who don't give it freely.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Help me Obi-Wan Kenobi. You're my only hope.
There are just certain forces we can't explain or control. Just have to let them happen and deal with the inevitable rejection later.
Friday, January 21, 2011
NOW HIRING: Sitcom Writers
Remember the season of FRIENDS when the writers thought it would be a good idea to explore a storyline where Joey and Rachel fall for each other?
I thought it was ridiculous and stupid. Joey, out of nowhere just falls for a friend who he has never really had a romantic chemistry or past with?
No.
Not possible.
That doesn't happen in real life.
Right?
Thursday, January 20, 2011
I kid! I kid!
What do you call a nun sleep walking?
A Roamin Catholic!
I am pretty sure my coworkers can't wait for me to run out of Laffy Taffy.
A Roamin Catholic!
I am pretty sure my coworkers can't wait for me to run out of Laffy Taffy.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
No explanation.
Everything logical AND emotional tells me this is not supposed to be happening.
So why is it happening? And why am I wanting it to?
So why is it happening? And why am I wanting it to?
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