Most of my entries in this blog are pretty pointless. Very few times do I say anything deep or of value. Tonight, I went back and read my original post from over a year ago. I realized while reading that post, that I really wish I would do more entries with feeling like that. Not that I want to go EMO on everyone. I just enjoy writing my emotions from time to time. And I don't do it enough. It's a nice release.
With that said, I will try to make this post tonight a little more deep. However, I do not make any promises. I just type what comes to my head. Sometimes that leads into pointless conversations with myself.
I am a dreamer. Any of my friends or family members will tell you that. I am a sucker for a good inspirational story. To me, fairy-tales are reality. My honest belief is that ANYTHING is possible. I mean that with all of my heart. Most people don't believe that. The lack of belief is the reason the impossible doesn't get accomplished.
I have lived an ordinary life. I haven't changed the world. This used to depress me because I have countless dreams and aspirations for my life. I want to make a difference in the world. I really do. I have realized though that I am only 24. And while I feel old, I have a lot of life ahead of me. There is no set map for people of great influence to follow. During the past several months, I have been enjoying reading books about influential and inspiring people. People that make a difference in their community and the world. I have noticed a few common trends among each of these stories. That trend is that each person's life was different. Each had different challenges and struggles to overcome. There is no set timeline for creating real change. I am not a failure just because I am 24 and haven't accomplished all my goals. Many people have done far more for the world by the time they were my age then I have. That in no way means I will not still change the world.
In all the books and stories I have read this year, the "heros" each had dreams. And through any trial, they NEVER gave up that dream. I believe any person has the ability and chance to change the world. The problem is that we give up on our dreams way too easily. We settle for mediocrity and leave our dreams in our childhood. The ones who make a difference are the ones who fight through life without ever settling.
I have chosen to be one of these people.
Some may think my attitude is arrogant. How dare I say that I will change the world! All I can say is that I will change to world because I dare to.
I expect many trials on the way to making my dreams come true. Things will not be handed to me on a silver platter. Life doesn't work that way. Much of my life may be a struggle. I may never see the fruits of my labors in my lifetime. This will not stop me.
I once wrote a list of things I will accomplish before I die. While I wont share that list with you now, I will tell you that when I wrote that list I didn't believe all of those items would come true. I was in my early teens and just needed something to hope for at that point in my life. I look at that list now and already things I thought impossible have happened. It's miraculous to me. I can honestly say I have become the person I dreamed of being when I was younger. But it's not over yet.
My list is not all crossed off quite yet. And as I grow, so does the list. I have a lot of dreams to make come true. I have a lot of things to leave for this world.
I can.
I will.
I am.
- Curtis
